Monday, October 07, 2024

Burn out

 I have the feeling of burnout today. It was probably due to the fact that the cleaning lady needed money in the morning and I ended up walking to the atm and back, which is a good 1800 m from my house (Through the way I could do nothing but think of how UPI is a single point of failure and if UPI were to fail, the reduced number of ATMs being serviced by banks means our system is not as resilient as it used to be..?? But I digress.. ) 

Anyway, I was feeling burnt out right now, primarily because I did not achieve as much as I should have today. I was thinking why that was the case. Why did I spend my time fixing my neovim configuration instead of shipping a build? As I thought through, I realised that the primary reason for this is that I am alone and at a stage where I don' have any users so there is zero accountability to ship stuff. However, that is not the case as just yesterday I was pretty pumped up about my prospects. I was equally alone yesterday than I was today. But today, I was not able to sit down even. 


After much thinking, I just concluded that I am burnt out by all the various factors in my life, not just work wise but also on the personal front. What is the effect that having a supporting partner would have had on my mood. I guess my batteries are not recharging properly. More to write but feeling sleepy... 

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